Monday, 6 January 2014

Being in leather!

Being stuck in leather is really fun and challenging!! I have tried it a couple of times and I now own a couple of leather straps/thongs, a posture collar and a pair of lovely elbow cuffs! 
One of the first time I was really stuck in leather though was when I was visiting
They have a huge and lovely collection of different leather contraptions, cuffs and gags. And they were very kind to let me try some really interesting leather things! Thought I tell you a little bit about it.

I had never thought of a leather chastity belt! But turns out they have it! And I got to get locked in to it. :) It is a different feeling from being in a metal one, I could move around a bit more- easier to sit and lay down. But still the belt did it's work - it was thight, locked and no chance of getting something in between ;)
 I also got to wear this lovely wide, thick leather collar. I love collars and this was not an exception. I could have worn it the whole day. The reasons I love collars are many, I like being restrained and a wide collar do that to you - It'll make it harder to move your head from side to side or up and down, another reason is because they for me are a little bit of bondage that can (depending on collar) be worn everyday in normal situations. Though this one was the kind that would restrict me! I could move my head from side to side still but up and especially down was hard cause it was wide and thick. I loved it.

The first postion I got to try out in leather was a strict reversed prayer! I had tried the position before but never with leather. It was a fun and very strict postion to be in. The leather thongs didn't give an inch for me to flex - just kept the arms in the right position. And I do also always love to try to get loose - can say I didn't manage that. The buckle on the straps was to far away for me to reach ;)

I also got to be in a lovely body harness with my elbows behind my back, my ankles belted to my thighs and a harness ring-gag. And to top it off hogtied.  I like it :)

When I got home from this lovely shoot I decided that I wanted a pair of elbow leather cuffs for myself. I found just the pair I wanted and have started my training of getting the elbows together behind my back.  Leather are also something I will explore more ;) Especially cuffs and straps!


Monday, 4 November 2013

Darker and rainy - more time for play !!

So here we go again.
November, it's getting darker and rainy -though it could be the worst time of the year this means more time indoors and that equals more time for play ! :-)

I have during the summer and the beginning of autum experienced some completly new things - some old ones but with a twist and I have bought a couple of more fun cuffs to get stuck in ;)
Stories of the fun things I have had during the summer to come but just thought I share some pics and thoughts with you !

Among the new things I have added to my little stash there are;

I walked in to the store and it just stood there....
A lovely chair- that from now on will be known as the bondagechair :-)  
At the moment I'm thinking of all the possible ties that someone can  get me stuck to this in :-) Any suggestions?

My newest addition to my cuff collection! Looks like a normal single cuff- It actually fits around my neck so a neck cuff!!! (And yes I promise that I'm very very careful using it)
Had a lovely trip to London  and I found these :-)

Think I will call them B cuff ?? well maybe not the greatest name but a good description.

This summer I also started (again) the practice that I have tried many times- wanting to be able to get my elbows together behind my back. Lets just see how long I can keep it up- and if it will give result! I know all aren't really build for it but I so want to be able to as far as I can and I know that it actually gets easier and a bit bendier after every practice. So I'll keep you posted!

And I also have had a day in chains again. It was a lovely warm summerday with loads of cold metal, gags and my lovely stock. 
I started the day in chains and ended it in them. I was put in this when I was running (according to the ones with the keys ) to much. I wasn't really running I promise- just walking a little bit on the grass with my leg-irons on enjoying the feeling of cuffed outside. Well a hogtie for 2 hours was the price. Though I enjoyed that as much :o)
Hogcuffed outside !

And now to some fun things I have shoot!
Rock n roll

Enjoyed beeing tied up..
maybe a bit to much ;-)

Wednesday, 18 September 2013

A step deeper in to hairfetish

I started to really explore some of the parts of hairfetishm  just a few years ago. It was also when I realized that I was a hairfetishist in many ways! The start was thrilling, exciting and full of pleasure as well as filled with fear, balancing on the edge of what was ok for my limits and pushing me- making me for some parts living one of my worst nightmares/fears.

The evening, standing in front of a big bed where some of my toys where lined up, rope, cuffs and collar, pair of handcuffs and duck tape (amazing that you can use it for almost everything!)
I was asked to take some of my clothes off, no biggie yet all normal part of play. But when he said we're going to get wet my first thourht was What??
Nervous but at the same time filled with excitement I obeyed. The little I had been allowed to know about this evening was that - dominance, bondage and my hair was in center! So while thoughts of scenarios was rumaging around my mind I was lead into the bathroom and the shower. All of a sudden helplessness came over me and without me realizing it he had started to take my hair down from the bun I had it in. Nobody! I really mean Nobody! had been allowed to do that for years! One of my phobias is that somebody detangling it will ruin it! And Especially not without asking me!  I was now feeling more nervous and at the same time excited/relaxed... weird mix...

For me having someone (especially dominant male! ) in my hair is a big deal and is always connected with feelings. The one holding my hair has to a big extent the power over me and a big part of my feelings. Panic and fear got to me when I realized he was going to wash my hair.- nice many of you might think. For me it really was mixed emotions! I love having someone take care of my hair - somebody I know can do it- but at the same time I'm out of control -helpless. Know I might sound just a tiny bit freaky and shallow now, but don't get me wrong here I do love to feel helpless and I really like having people playing in my hair - as long as they dont destroy it or cut it!!

After I had my hair slowly washed I was lead out of the shower and told to sit down- cuffs were put on and of course my collar. He started to detangle my hair- I felt naked nervous and helpless when he started to run his fingers through it and combing it.Strangely though  my body got to submode quite quick and I felt chills going up and down my spine. I now know that these feelings are a big trigger for me.(didn't at the time though) But then again having someone play in your hair is a huge turn on for many not kinky people as well! So imagine what it can do to a sub and a hairfetishst one! Explosion!

An hour or so later I was told to lay on the bed and he lay down beside me for a while, with his attention to my hair- what an odd yet thrilling feeling that was! I had never had anybody turned on by my hair like that before! And that turned me on as well. Weird why was I getting turned on by that ?- ( need to explain why in another post) He was running his fingers over my hair, combing it while he was tying me to the bed. Both hands and feet became tied and A BLINDFOLD.- Now all my senses was on high alert something was coming!!

Because of my fear for scissors, razors and trimmers - well  everything that can harm my hair really I was so nervous, he knew my weakness... At first I just heard him moving around then I heard a dreading sound- the clippers ------ heartattack!! I started to scream no, please, begging... when the clippers was close to my ears I stopped breathing. He was saying things in my ear, not to scream, trust me this will be a good thing, it's just the begining.. (well that wasn't a complete lie..)
My panic started to grow when I felt the clippers on my forhead, feelt scissors then I felt hair falling down... Full Alert!! I screamed and screamed but his hand was put over my mouth, him telling me it's going to be ok, I can trust him - I was very close to tears now and inside I was screaming and crying.

He stopped with the scissors, made me promise to stay still and he removed the blindfold. When the blindfold was off,  I had him sitting on my stomach to make sure I was not to move - the knot in my stomach was growing by the second. He then tells me to look into his eyes- tells me that he did promise everything was to be OK. And actually it was- My hair was still there length and all. !!
Calm just spread through my body. I felt Happy !!

The cuffs was still on - but released from the bed and put in a balltie. I was just able to relax and enjoy the rest ;) and also the kick and thrill the session had given me!


Sunday, 16 June 2013

Fun times !!

Picture update! while I'm thinking about what to tell you next :)

Theme for this one is Hair and  bondage

A lovely tie, tied to a banister, felt a little bit like a mermaid with the hair flowing all around me  :-)

 What more fun could you do on a beach? ;-)

 These two are from a lovely more art and hair inspired shoot.

 Captured and tied up....

 One of my first hairties ! It was lovely and definetly a challenge to do ;-)


Monday, 3 June 2013

In cuffs for 48 hours part 2

So where was I? ;-)

Well in the belt on the floor with my head in a box, feeling the nervousness grow more and more. I probably wasn't longer than half an hour or so in the box to start with, but it felt SO much longer when you can't see and other senses are blocked. I was let out just in time for dinner (my mind had forgotten everything that had to do with food) and I was starting to feel a bit up in the blue ! Dinner was nice, I was put in cuffs and told I had to eat in them, I don't mind eating in cuffs I rather like the feeling, it's interesting every time to see if I manage to do so properly or if I have to be punished afterwards ;-) This time was a success so no punishment.

After dinner I was to my surprise unlocked. First thought in my mind was; hey what now? I'm usually always in cuffs.. But instead I was told to strip of a bit of clothes and then I was lead to a table where I was bent over and tied nicely with my legs a bit a part. After some minutes felt the riding crop.... I'm just loved it ! It's such a nice feeling when handle right, when it hits the thighs, my bum or the soles of my feet. I love the tiny sting it gives and the tingling that lingers for a few seconds more after the stroke. After this the evening continued with me naked or in clothes (depending on being in or outside)- in the belt and with cuffs behind my back, sometimes clamps was attached to my nipples and with weights (a pair of handcuffs or padlocks). I thought  he was joking showing me these but no. It's a lovely and submissive feeling going through me when I have someone pulling the chains to the nipple clamps. In that moment I'm helpless and know that I can't do anything and will do what he asks..

The night was spent in the Belt (of course:) ) and in a two pairs of Irish 8, one for my feet and one for my hands. A short chain was locked in between the pairs and to my belt with a padlock. I was so nervous for spending the night in this position. Was I ever going to go to sleep? how many hours would I be able to sleep without being unlocked? And on top of this a gag was put on. I do love gags but not for sleeping !!  (Didn't sleep in it though, was nicely let out just before I was going to sleep)

When I woke up in the morning (or almost around lunch) I really didn't know if I had been sleeping or not ! I wasn’t at all tired but  I didn't remember falling asleep.  I know that I after a couple of hours sleeping with the hands tightly locked to my belt asked to be let out of them. I started to feel uncomfortable and it wasn't probably too long before my hands would start to tingle. I was unlocked and hands got to be in a pair of hinged for the rest of the night. 

Breakfast that morning was eaten in a pair of cuffs and leg irons.  After that I was just left in chains, which are moments I enjoy during these kinds of sessions. I can just be and think, I do not need to worry about anything. I have some time to process my thoughts of the ongoing play and of my feelings (this helps me to keep the feeling of being "high"  a little bit longer) I also have the chance to think about more fun and evil ties, cuffs, positions and so on that I might want to try. The day continued outside in the sun and with me in different pairs of cuffs and of course in the belt and with the collar around my neck :-)  Loads of time for me just being, thinking and relaxing. It's always nice to let go of all the needs and must and just be. I love doing this with a pair of cuffs or just a collar around my neck. 

Two memorable ties/positions and the hardest ones this day was the strapped outside and once again a hogtie with my head in the box. 

Let's start with the strappado ;-)

This might not look that hard- but believe me after almost 2 hours in this positions you ARE tired ! 
It's a nice position though :-) One of my favorites. It was strict as it should be (not giving me much room to move) and tight just in the right places. 

One of the hard parts just standing there was that I wasn't able, nor was I allowed to speak ! (for me keeping quiet for a long time is hard )  So to describe the strappado - I had two pair of handcuffs ( one hinged, one regular ) a metal chain with a padlock, a tight pair of cuffs to the feet with hardly no chain at all between them and (you don’t see it in the pic ) a chastity belt. And to top it all of a red Ballgag !

When I almost had reached the 2 hours, my mind and body kind of collapsed and from nowhere pain came and tears started running... didn't realize just how tired my body and mind was until I was unlocked and left to rest (didn't notice the tears ) I had really pushed my limit ! I was happy and flying and falling, all at the same time - emotions everywhere. When I was unlocked I didn't even think about the belt or the gag that was in my mouth. I was lost - In subspace somewhere. I was proud and happy that I had endured this and that I had liked it ! I had done well  :)  I had at this point been in some sort of cuffs/gag/restriction for over 28 hours.  Nothing I recommend to anybody not fully knowing what they're doing and not knowing each other.

The other position I remember as very hard was a hogtie on the floor with my head in the wooden box for a longer period.  I was told to take of my jeans and as the day before I was on the floor with a pair of Irish 8 and a chain going through to the cuffs around my feet. My head was after this put in to the wooden box, blocking my sense of sight and to some extent my hearing, the new thing today was that a harness gag was put on before my head was put in the box. 
(Need to mention that this was a punishment for me doing things I was told not to do  ;-) )

After one hour or so in this position I started to feel nervous, I couldn't see anything, and I was definitely out of all control. Horrible ! I like losing control and giving it to a person I trust but not being able to see what was going on was hard so hard….
I got to know how long I had left after one hour, one and a half hour  and when it was 20 minutes left. Time has never gone so quick and so slow at the same time. Interesting how can it go both ways??

That night I spent in chains, one chain going around my waist down between my legs and locked. I also had slave cuffs and collar on. No need to tell I slept really well that night :-) Didn't wake up once!

Writing this I feel the need to say  Do not try this if you do not know what you're doing and know the person you’re doing it together with ! SO many things can go wrong. I have known my partner for a long time and been in this for over 10 years. It's so vital that you are thinking of all the safety aspects and do all to minimize/prevent any damage that can come - both to the body and mind. 

Next time I'll promise will be more hair related ;-)


Sunday, 19 May 2013

Being in cuffs for 48 hours.. part 1

The next time I had the chance to be in cuffs for a longer term it was for 48 hours! It was lovely, nervous, wonderful, scary and well yes a bit overwhelming...  It was a weekend where my limits where pushed a bit further and I realized more and more exactly why I'm here  :)

This weekend started with that I meet my partner at the station, where he picked me up and it started right when we got into the car, On the seat where a pair of new cuffs :) I was told to put them on, it was a pair of lovely hinged cuffs, I love that they feel a bit more strict then the normal pair with a chain between. The 48 hours had begun and I was feeling happy, relaxed and a bit nervous!
What could I expect? what would happen?

When we arrived I was told to wait in the car, I was locked in cuffs and couldn't go anywhere. So what a girl to do? When I got inside I was put in a hogtie with the help of a pair of leg irons and I now had my hands in the hinged cuffs behind my back ! 
I was put in that position for a bit over an hour (had lots of thoughts going through my mind at that time) an hour is a long time. It's lovely and challenging at the same time! Would I be able to stay like it for so long? and how would I feel afterwards? I was so happy though that the hogtie was with cuffs, it was a relief because they are a bit more comfy than rope ones when you have to be in them for a while , cuffs stay in place and don't get tighter with time ;)

When I then came loose (only for a short time, to get my jacket off) there was a suprize for me! A pair of Irish8 was produced... I had never tried that model of cuffs before! After the 48 hours I can say I'm in love with them (so much I now own two different kinds of them ;) ) My hands where put normally behind my back and I my feet in normal cuffs. Then he found a ballgag and that well was put in my mouth. So I wouldn't talk to much he said! While I sat there he went through some of the bondage things we could use.. a ridingcrop, chastity belt, harnessgag, ropes, cuffs, collar....

Just looking at thoose things made me excited. I love beeing  in cuffs and to know that I was going to be in all thoose things well. HAPPY!!!

After a while I was put in a kind of slave cuffs , chain going between hands/feet and my collar was put on, the feeling of submissiveness came over me straight away.. It was such a wonderful feeling, just beeing while I waited, no demands no nothing. After a while came the next suprize. I know we had talked about it before hand, but I never actually thought that he would do that kind of entrapment.. but he was. It was a box for my head! My instant feeling was creepy and well he can't be serious, Am I going to be in that?! But I was... And as that wasn't enough I was put in my chastity belt! which was with a bit of nervousness from my side. I didn't know how long I was going to be in it! And before that I just had had it on for a couple of hours straight. So yes a bit panic.. but at the same time, challenge and relaxed feelings where in my mind. 

After the belt was put on, the key put away I was put on the floor and my head was put in to the box. When it said *klick* and it became almost dark I was so nervous, how was I going to make this.. I heard him doing other things...I was concentrating so much on my senses. This was a weird feeling for me, becuase I couldn't move much, don't make that much of a sound and on top of that couldn't see much. Submissiveness - definetly. Pushing my limits - check! Was it just the beginning - well  guess?? :)

Tell you more later on  ;-)


Wednesday, 1 May 2013

How did it start...

Was thinking back the other day on how I actually ended up here ( well not the vanilla side, but the BDSM one ;))   So though I share some of the lovely first memories and some more with you.

I probably always have had it in me, remember how I played tying up games with my friend around chairs and beds being a kid - you can use a skipping rope to so many things ;)

My real curiosity started when I was a teenager and found some printed out pictures of tied up girls behind my boyfriends bed, I was trying to be a nice girlfriend and help with cleaning so we could spend more time together. The pictures came as a suprise for me. I didn't know what to do or say - was to shy, innocent and young...
The closest to any kind of porn I had been was some pics on a computerscreen when boys in my class was fooling around -nothing more. So this was something,  the girls weren't even naked on the pics. They were tied up with white ropes and had red ballgags both of them wore office suits. 

After looking at the pics in secret and judging how I was supposed to act, I asked the boyfriend if he'd like to keep them?otherwise I would throw them out. Well thoose two copies went out with the rest of the trash... don't know if that was the right way to react but what could I do?  Have later heard that he became really nervous when I found them, because he didn't know my view of those kinds of pics, Well neither did I  :P

As I said I didn't know how to react - something was making me curios and made it tickle somewhere- but loads of other thoughts told me that THIS IS WRONG From here the road to the way I live and LOVE it hasn't been the simplest and doubts as is this really for me? Can I really like this?why? isn't this lifestyle wrong? But somewhere along there I started to realize I loved every minute  - that was a little bit more then 10 years ago :o)

My first experience where bondage was involved was a Midsummers night eve  the same year I found the pics behind the bed. We were out and celebrating a traditional midsummers with friends, dancing, singing, eating good food and strawberry cake. We were supposed to sleep in a tent that night because of the numbers of people who were there. So as every teenagers in love we crawled in to our sleeping bag late at night.... ;o)

He asked me very carefully if he could tie me up with the rope to the sleeping bag -just hands in front he said while we had sex. I was curious, did want to know how it felt and how my body would respond so I said  Sure, lets try. Looking back that's probably one of the best answers I have given ;) It started this whole thing. I didn't know how it should be and I didn't understand the whole meaning of it just then. The one thing I did know was that I liked it A LOT. Enjoyed every minute- noticed how much it meant and what it did to him. It was just wonderful  Especially how gentle and careful he treated me all through it and afterwards. He was caring loving and just put me in the center, I and what I felt was all that mattered. Afterwards he was very gentle untying the ropes, massaged my hands and kissed them - he was so happy and said so many nice words to me.
I just felt so safe and cared for ! These feeling continued after our first adventure together.

The things I remember the most is the feelings of safety, love and care! (and of course the excitment it started :) )